The LeSabre

The LeSabre

The LeSabre

Finding home in unexpected places

Ashlyn Swanson
I’m grateful that my sister’s leadership abilities could be demonstrated through my connections with my teammates after she left for college.

A significant part of my life disappeared the night my sister went off to college. My home was suddenly quieter, a gap left in the halls where her laughter had once filled them. We used to share the same spaces, but it felt like a piece of my heart had vanished, leaving me alone and lost.

My sister left for college in the fall of 2022 making me the only child. (Ashlyn Swanson)

In those initial days, I struggled to adjust to my new reality. Memories of our shared moments, from late-night conversations to spontaneous adventures, haunted me like lingering ghosts of a past life. Her empty place at the dinner table was a constant reminder of her absence, and without her, our home’s once-vibrant energy seemed to fade.

During my lonely moments, a glimmer of hope emerged. It started with unexpected acts of kindness. I found friendship among my younger teammates, driving them around and striving to be a guiding influence, just like my sister had been for me.

I was hesitant to let these new friendships in at first. How, after all, could someone ever truly replace the relationship my sister and I had? But the more time I spent telling tales, laughing, and sometimes even crying with these girls, the more I understood that they didn’t need to take her place. They instead offered a sisterhood formed not by blood but by shared memories and sincere love.

As time went on these girls became my regular companions, their warmth and kindness filling the void left by my sister’s absence. I found comfort in their company and the loneliness weighing on my heart started to fade because of their compassion and support. They turned into my friends, my supporters, and, above all, my sisters in all but name.

I discovered that sisterhood is more than just blood. It’s about accepting the unexpected and being honest and genuine. It’s a bond that surpasses biology and survives in any circumstance or location. And sometimes, you find it where you least expect it.

Ever since we were young, my sister and I have always been best friends. (Ashlyn Swanson)

I offer advice to anyone who is struggling to deal with the emptiness that comes with being apart from a close sibling: be open to the idea that sisterhood may exist in unexpected places. Accept the relationships that you encounter, as they might be the light that helps you pass from the shadow of loneliness into the warmth of a brand-new chapter that is full of love, joy, and laughter.

I realize that I will be saying goodbye to these amazing girls in a few months when I get ready to start my college career. They have grown to be such a treasured part of my life, in the same way that my sister and I bonded before she left. Just like my sister is an amazing older sibling, I got to step into the role of the big sister for a little while, and I’ll always be thankful for that experience.

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Ashlyn Swanson
Ashlyn Swanson, Journalist
Grade: Senior Activities: Swimming and Softball My car's name: Dora the Ford Explorer Favorite superhero: Spiderman Favorite coffee shops: Starbucks and Copper Pony